There are some times when I want to think about the friends I have.. and then there are some days that I think about the friends I use to have.
There are issues I would love to bring up again and just get them off my chest but there are other days that I just can't think of the words to say.
I have been getting a busier life and I have been getting deeper into my work and my personal life but right now I just don't really know what to do.
I would love to just sit back and watch the world pass by, but I can't. I have to indulge myself and be apart of something that I know will never be as easy as its suppose to be?
I have made a great new group of friends and I love them to death... and I still have all my old friends as well.. but when I start forgetting about my old friends I am thinking to myself.. why can't I just get up off my lazy ass and just go hang out and do something.
If only money wasn't a big concern at the moment.
I wish I could win the lottery and just make everything on a much happier note.
I am not a good friend, I believe.. I don't know how to make things alot better than I want them to be.
I ever wonder does anyone think..
HEY! We should include Jordan into this activity or just something.
Cause most of the time I just feel left out.
I know I am the outsider of my new group.. and I sometimes feel like I have abandoned my old friends.. but I just don't know what to do anymore.
Rather just sit back and watch everything go by..
Just kinda put myself in the background once in a while and just be there for people.
Though people hardly know me as it is..
Someone should just sit me down and ask 100 questions and just get to know me a little bit more than usual.. cause in that experiment people get to know me.. and I guess I get to know myself.
I guess I need to find myself again and that takes time.. who knows.. does anyone really know who they are anymore?